Monday, December 29, 2003
dk whether im thinking too much or she's reli drifting away..realised tt i dk her as well as before haiz idk i guess the camp reli changed a lot of stuff..quite sad tt i dint go but it's a fact tt i cant change a lot of things arent in my control you know..reli very tired of all the guessing and stuff i mean when can i be reli sure..that time wont come until she tells me or i ask but how shld i go about asking i guess i have the fear that even if i ask she wont tell me..even now when she comes online i dont dare to talk to her cos im afraid that she wld be irritated with me bre says she wont cos im her gf but who knows?the year is coming to an end real soon..can there be a happy ending?alvin says i always look troubled i guess im reli troubled..sometimes i feel very left out can things be just like they were before?i really want to know..
"Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge him and he will make your paths straight."
12:24 pm
Wednesday, December 24, 2003
lala im bored..christmas is tml!!sigh a year has come and gone just like that..went to john's house yesterday yeah had a ok time there..not too bad larhz sigh dk wad they were talking so yeah was quite lost anyway their conversation was related to camp so yeah lidat lor..sigh gotta go back to sch soon..nowadays dk wad to say to adelene when i see her usually i can just start a conversation or maybe just blabber smth but tt doesnt seem to be the case lately idk..watching the clouds go by yesterday john said smth abt her crush den it's like i looked at her den she looked at me idk probably she thinks tt i told pple abt it haiz..im oso quite lost dk wad to do dk wad to say so how?haiz wad can i do except to be wad i am..doodle
4:42 pm
Friday, December 19, 2003
hey..well nth much to do these days..oh yeah bought a purple hippo fer candice and a yellow star for adelene..yeah dk whether she will like it but i guess candice will like hers..still havent buy prezzies yet haha yep the camp ends tml quite fast..james said he'll call me when it's over dk for wad but wadever larhz..met a.yook wah at robinsons yesterday with tymon yeah so 'qiao' right..no lesson today cos i had it on wed so im like super free today with nowhere to go..haha
4:07 pm
Wednesday, December 17, 2003
sigh..just got home went to church to do balloon sculpturing mm hm yeah the camp starts today sigh until sat leh quite long before they'll be back..oh well yesterday went down to church oso cos got rehearsal for the christmas special thingy yeah spent the whole afternoon there den it was like i pulled james out of the sanctuary during break and asked him to give the prezzie to alithea den he take out and the price tag was still on the bottle orh..sheesh how corny can this get sigh..anyway yeah did a last minute wrapping up with the church bulletin and rubber bands haha quite cool but it wasnt me who did it..yeah den mr. wong went to the toilet and came out running with toilet paper..sigh idk wad to say so yeah all the wrapping was done by him arh so yeah luckily alithea dint mind haha den went back to practice den puppetry and the day was over..yeah dint reli get a chance to tok to ade cos she was so so tired i guess so maybe i'll just catch up with her on sunday..gtg do my christmas shopping soon man..*sigh*
2:08 pm
Sunday, December 14, 2003
hehheh~went out the whole day today with james,candice,alvin,jeremy and me haha..today was fun legs aching like crazy now yeah walk and walk ok larhz that was exaggerated haha went to watch elf lame show man..haha finally i remembered to buy alithea's b'dae prezzie haha got reli worried when i got to church today cos i forgot to buy her prezzie so yeah heng she nvr grill me for it today was gift shop..my last gift shop of the year retiring liao haha today's entry gonna be quite long so yeah bear with it arh today quite a lot of happenings mah..finally i know who she likes..heh shld be quite sure arh cos was toking to him den yeah he told me all abt the outing they had which i dint know so yeah now i know orh haha met susanna at suntec today den it's like dint reli notice it was her until she tugged my arm haha quite blur right..not my fault larhz so many pple somemore got the spongebob squarepants thingy going on so quite a lot of kids arh yuppo..come home took a bath den my marmie told me tt there was a card for me so yeah larhz took a look from handwriting know tt it was from sana so yeah quite happy arh today was indeed a gd day heh yeah guess wad adelene and breanna are coming back tml..haha gosh reli miss them man..luckily not going fer youth camp arh busy enuff liao wonder if they're going heard from mr.wong tt they are going so yeah hope tt they'll have a nice time there arh while im rotting at home no larhz i'll entertain myself..rehearsal this tues..signing off..
10:12 pm
Thursday, December 11, 2003
yuppo just came back from course quite tired now..sigh wad to do man there's this guy from st gabriels who has this major huge crush on me haiz..zen me ban..and it's like only after a day orh sheesh cant be bothered to think abt it now arh yeah going to bathe now so yeah have a nice day..
4:57 pm
Tuesday, December 09, 2003
hm just realised i've got nothing much to say^having a sore throat^..still thinking..someone from church hm only one person can come to my mind if its someone from church..oh well yeah did a bit of 'counselling' today..xy was feeling down so yeah just talked to her and tried my best to make her feel better humouring pple is not my expertise you know..gotta sleep earlier today cos have to wake up super early tml haiz this whole thing so poot poot wad to do im poot sai..yeah to myself-goodnight-==clouds are cool by the way heh
10:25 pm
Monday, December 08, 2003
dont feel as down as yesterday today..yeah right now just watching the day and clouds go by i think im starting to have this thing for clouds oh wadever..im bored lala ok im blabbering haiz have a course on wed and thurs sian sia go ALL the way to sp sigh yep listening to the 'cool' cd now..yeah i still am not sure as to who she likes oh well guess ill just have to wait for her to come back which is another week..such fun
12:51 pm
Sunday, December 07, 2003
yuppo this is my new blog..oso dk why i create this blog something just got into me i guess..yeah slept real late last night or rather *ahem* this morning at ard 2 mm hm dint go to church today yeah have lots to catch up on..sigh confused confused confused i oso dk..adelene has a crush and im not supposed to tell but the thing is i reli have no idea as to who exactly she likes and even if i do..wld i do such a thing sigh trust tt's the word i guess i reli dk just feeling a bit seh now havent been talking to her for quite a long time now so i may be quite far behind idk not her fault tho..fell sick in china and still a bit sick now *cough cough* so yeah slacking now...bleh