Monday, May 31, 2004
sat
was out practically the whole day.woke up at 6.came home at abt 630.left the house at 7.travelled all the way to clementi.stayed at a.lin kum's place.watched movie and did other stuff yeah basically the whole stayover was cool.the people too yeah shant go into further details.my day.
sun
went to church.managed to squeeze into her car whoa.lame comments passed ard during the ride.bible quiz.dint expect us to win.such tyconess we had.no one studied.but i guess God was with us then.thank you.lois led worship during pk.she's good.she really led the kids into worship.not all of them but there were a few.the sight warmed my heart.the children were really worshipping Him.felt like crying.dk why but i guesss it was a sense of satisfaction.that made my day.made me think.how many of us are actually worshipping Him?what is true worship?from what i saw in the children,it was true worship.and i guess i was also worshipping Him at prayercell last night.i cried.why is it that the kids can give their hearts to him but we cant?*pondering*like how many of us actually come to church for the right reason?alvin was right.some people are coming to church for the wrong reason.what abt you?i hope you're living for Him..
loneliness in the night.was using the comp when melvin called.talked until the phone batt went flat.bbq tmr.
mon
still having flu.been having it since dk when.*sneeze* wellwell i have smth to say to you.just trust in the Lord in whatever your decision may be and i'm sure he'll make your paths straight so yeah just be patient and continue to p.u.s.h yeah.
10:15 am
Sunday, May 23, 2004
hey..just very tired now cant seem to sleep argh i think i'm a bit deaf now all thanks to chris who played the drums so loud yesterday and today i was like playing the first song like whoa haiyo.i'mquitebored now with nth to do yup wahaha well well now mr wongers has become quite famous considering the fact that lois told people in her sch abt him haha they had this prefects conference lala thingy in tk so yeah from what they shared it was quite dumb larhz play lame games and act out impromptu corny dramas mm hmm haha today was quite ok i guess just that now no one goes for guitar lessons wonder if uncle silas is mad abt it but he dint ask us abt it yesterday during practice so yeah we'll see.shucks.parade rehearsal next sat.of all sats.wondering if i can still make it to a.lin kum's place which is like all the way to clementi.oh well.tmr's gonna be a busy day with all the mass revisions and stuff.it's the last week of sch already.
5:40 pm
Monday, May 17, 2004
ouch.i'm feeling it again.could have just cried just now.things have changed.i try very hard to be normal but it just adds on to the misery.will we still be friends 10 years later?i really wonder.i'm really afraid of the future.so much have changed in just a year.who knows what will happen 10 years later?will i still be your friend?will i still mean anything?i tried to be there for you..but i guess you dint need me.great.you have started another phase of your life and i see that you're getting along fine.i mean im happy for you of course but it seems that i dont talk as much now as compared to perhaps before.idk how you feel idk what to say.you just make me all confused.i know i care too much i'm sorry.i know i put too much hope in this friendship.not that it's over now but.sigh idk.just thought that you were very special and you still are of course.i really put too much hope in this friendship.it's not your fault it never was.i guess i just need some time.i thought i had gotten over this but i was deceiving myself.i just feel very dry now.like all the love has been taken out of me and i'm left with no more for others.will get back to normal when i get 'refuelled'.i feel so crushed up inside.dont get the wrong idea.all along i just thought of you as a special friend.that's all.i need some time.alone.
very inspiring..
''Most Important Part of the Body"
My mother used to ask me what is the most important part of the body. Through the years I would take a guess at what I thought was the correct answer. When I was younger, I thought sound was very important to us as humans, so I said, "My ears, Mommy." She said, "No. Many people are deaf. But you keep thinking about it and I will ask you again soon."
Several years passed before she asked me again. Since making my first attempt, I had contemplated the correct answer. So this time I told her, "Mommy, sight is very important to everybody, so it must be our eyes." She looked at me and told me, "You are learning fast, but the answer is not correct because there are many people who are blind."
Stumped again, I continued my quest for knowledge and over the years, Mother asked me a couple more times and always her answer was, "No. But you are getting smarter every year, my child."
Then last year, my grandpa died. Everybody was hurt. Everybody was crying. Even my father cried. I remember that especially because it was only the second time I saw him cry. My Mom looked at me when it was our turn to say our final good-bye to Grandpa. She asked me, "Do you know the most important body part yet, my dear?"
I was shocked when she asked me this now. I always thought this was a game between her and me. She saw the confusion on my face and told me, "This question is very important. But today is the day you need to learn this important lesson."
She looked down at me as only a mother can. I saw her eyes well up with tears. She said, "My dear, the most important body part is your shoulder." I asked, "Is it because it holds up my head?" She replied, "No, it is because it can hold the head of a friend or a loved one when they cry. Everybody needs a shoulder to cry on sometime in life, my dear. I only hope that you have enough love and friends that you will always have a shoulder to cry on when you need it."
Then and there I knew the most important body part is not a selfish one. It is sympathetic to the pain of others. People will forget what you said...People will forget what you did. But people will NEVER forget how you made them feel. The origination of this letter is unknown, but it brings a blessing to everyone who passes it on. Good friends are like stars...You don't always see them, but you always know they're there.
*where was my shoulder whenever i needed it?
9:20 pm
Thursday, May 13, 2004
haha.
dk why but i feel as if there's no more paper tmr.went to arts bistro or smth if i dint get the name wrong for lunch.ate lasagne there yeah then went down to kfc to study geog but ended up listening to carrot cake mm hmm arh whatever larhz looking forward to tmr yep.
cool.saw half a rainbow yesterday it was stretched across the pinkish orangey cool blue sky like wow if only i had a cam with me at that moment.rainbow in the sunset.smile yeah have a nice day~
4:40 pm
Wednesday, May 05, 2004
sigh just realised today that the specs course is residential haiz so sucky orh will have to miss church tsk then got sec three camp also exams start tmr.tmr.less than 12 hours away i'll be doing my paper already.listening to tears now haha cos talking to jerome then he ask me to listen to this song that he sent and asked me if i like it so yup now listening to it yeah boy?it's nice larhz just that i dont understand a single word cos it's in jap!!haha same goes for endless rain but that one is really nice and i havent got the piano scores yet haiyo.just heard some english words trying to make it out haha this song last ten minutes whoa.heh did the physics assessment or smth idk what it's called then the whole class got all excited and started fiddling with the remote haiz but all in all it was quite fun yupyup then brought home all my bks today cos of the exam thingy yeah and tmr we'll be in the new block taking our exams sigh i miss the container!
8:41 pm
Monday, May 03, 2004
haiz.confused.why.can you tell me?
aiyo i want to go for the workshop but i'm on course on those days.argh.how come.why.slack.someone lend me some ropes yeah i need to pull my grades up.*yawns*tired just want to go to sleep.sigh.endless rain~
10:06 pm
Saturday, May 01, 2004
wellwell i think i sort of know who you're talking abt and erm yeah talked to her but she dint tell me anything so i dint ask further cos she dint want to share i guess yup i'll try again yeah?i rem we used to talk over the phone and that's when she will share but nowadays it's sort of difficult to find chances to talk to her mm hm just stick ard yup i think she reli needs you.