Tuesday, February 28, 2006i feel so tired now. i dont even know if there's school on fri but then again does it matter? oh well. we'll see. went to venezia with andrea and called alvin along too. was trying hard to describe sixth avenue to him but apparently i made no sense. deb crashed ny again today and asked me several times if i wanted to go along. she likes it there and i hope she gets in without having to do the clep thing. but if i get in there, i dont know what to say. i'll just leave it to Him then. i dont have a very nice feeling about that place even though like that place is flooded with people from school. i dont know la. just a feeling. oh well. we'll see.
was thinking of walking along the railway track the other day and andrea asked me abt it today. "so when are we gonna walk along the tracks?" i said i dont know. prob 7th of march i guess. just some random date i thot of. but then again when school starts and all we wont really have the time. oh well. so it's ac for her and sa for me. a bit far though. valery came back to school today even though she has withdrawed. haha so nice of her. and alvin suggested going to the zoo for class outing on fri. isaac was like "what?!" and alvin replied "oh how about night safari?" i'm sure la. deprived kid. oh they dint catch fish today haha. maybe cos their fishing kakis were not around or smth. poor fish.
was spending sunday afternoon in church going through this song with james. it's really nice. but i guess there are some points in our lives where we find it hard to sing it out. alvin asked me if i have ever fought or snapped at a person or smth like that. i cant remember. dont think i've ever scolded a person. not really a scolding but just waking the person up or smth like that. guess i'll never lose it with a person cos i'll prob restrain myself and erm ya try not to snap. even if i'm having a bad day, i'll just be very quiet and not say anything. but if i do that someday, something must be really wrong.
wonderful Jesus, by your word i live glorious Saviour, by Your grace You've rescued me where would i be without You? You are my life 'cos You've been so good to me You've been so good to me with all that i have, i'd sing to You for You've been so good to me
God never fails.
6:24 pm
Sunday, February 26, 2006when everything comes crashing down, You're always there to rescue me.
i need a swing at the swing.
and i'll praise You in this storm and i will lift my hands You are who You are no matter where i am every tear i cry You hold in Your hand You never left my side and though my heart is torn i will praise you in this storm
8:41 pm
Saturday, February 25, 2006better than the riches of this world better than the sound of my friends' voices better than the biggest dreams of my heart that's just the start better than getting what i say i need better than living the life that i want to better than the love anyone could give Your love is
You hold me now in Your arms and never let me go.
ok i had one of those sudden panics today. letitia msged me saying she didnt receive the songsheet which i had already sent out. i was like "what??" tried to recall the names of the people i sent to and i realised i really didnt send it to her. i know this is not very nice but hey, i'm not sure whether she's in the team or not. maybe because i didnt see her the last time round. got to check with a.siok tmr i guess. but anyway called james to print an extra copy for her cos he said he will print some just in case so ya. if this kind of thing happens to me everyday i dont know how long i can last. thank God it doesnt. andrea just called. she conked out on me last night. but anyway i fell asleep while waiting for her reply. was playing the doxology today and i made quite a lot of mistakes with all the hesitation and wrong notes. john said if i played like that for main service everyone would be having a funny look on their faces like you know, hold the note until i get it right. or smth like that. but then again i'm on probation and dont think i'll be playing soon. in fact i dont want to play soon. i know i'm not ready. handling the hymns and stuff is no joke at all. besides it's fun to observe and just play along during practice. i get to learn at my own pace. still learning the ropes. oh well.
i really got to start practising my piano. my scales and arpeggios are like erm scaly? idk man. been doing theory since the start of prelims or smth. my piano's getting dusty. and rusty i guess. sigh. i'm taking 7 this year. crap. i need to brush up on my playing. someone lend me a brush?
You oh Lord made the sunshine and the moonlight in the nightsky You give me breath and all Your love i give my heart to You because i cant stop falling in love with You i'll never stop falling in love with You i cant stop falling in love with You i'll never stop falling in love with You
10:33 pm
alright i'm online now to print out the songsheet for tmr. keep forgettting to print it. went back to sch yesterday to visit ms soh. my gosh her tummy's really big. heard it's due in april. oh well. yeah then i stayed for training too and talked to ms pang who relieved my class just once and somehow i got to know her. was on the way home and i suddenly remembered that i had to send out the songlist. sudden panics. so ya no thanks to james who sent it to me on thursday when it's due on wed. i'm gonna get it on sunday. told james to not to run off after worship on sunday. and the joint's on later! oh crap. so many things so little time. boo.
anw had pe yesterday and ya all the crap that happened in school. isaac and alvin turned out to be deprived kids who like catching fish from the pond. poor fish. so excited when they caught one la. went to taka with andrea the other day and got attacked by those donation people. oh well. one more week. if you're happy and you know it clap your hands.
You made it all and said "let there be" and there was all that we see the sound of Your voice the works of Your hand You do all things well You do all things well You do all things well:)
12:26 pm
Wednesday, February 22, 2006take everything and leave it at the cross. :)
that was a quote i heard on a christian radio. it was focus on the family time with dr. james dobson and this lady was just sharing stuff that i didnt really catch. oh well.
alright my day in school wasnt exactly good but the rest of it was fine. met up with andrea and chilled for a while in school before we decided we would lunch at btm. but in the end when we were at btm we decided we would join vic and the rest at kap so ya for the sake of the air-conditioning. everyone's starting to ask me if andrea and i were friends before this. maybe we seem like it. oh wells.
oh i finally figured out the chords for incomparable. ya finally. it's like how long man. a song without chords haha. it starts with a minor. mm. was just trying it out on the guitar and i couldnt get anything right. then i turned to the trusty old piano for help and i got it. yay. i need someone to tell me if it sounds funny with the minor. crap. i'm taking practical this year. oh man. why cant abrsm just hold several exams a year. then i wouldnt have to consider wasting another year to move on.
incomparable.
i stand before You, in awe and wonder how could this happen to me? with all i am, i offer my life, as a pleasing sacrifice Lord how could this be true? unworthy as i am, yet You called me Your own how could this be real? that You look upon me like a precious gem
Your love is unfailing Your faithfulness is true by Your hand You raise me up by Your grace You forgive the love of my life incomparable, that's what You are
8:02 pm
Monday, February 20, 2006billy's off to the states to study. i'll miss him man. sitting beside him last year was really fun. keeps me entertained with his stupid antics. hear all his bullshit about becoming a rockstar. i'm sure man. haha. he's supposed to help me with my a maths but in the end he ends up getting the As and Bs while i get the Es and Fs. haha because i can never figure out his working. his writing is like crap. especially for relative velocity. cant even see what he's drawing. oh well.
it's been a long time since we all sat down as a cell to talk. josh and i went down straight to look for candice after service to pass her the card because we were afraid that she might have left. went down and sat with candice and adora in the encounter lounge. daniel joined us then we called for jeremy and soon almost the whole cell was there. though the togetherness was short-lived, every moment spent was treasured. my cell used to be the largest until the current sec 1s joined cg. and along the way we've lost one another, neglected one another and forgot one another. i love my cell. things are picking up, slowly but surely.
our life is full of brokenness. how can we live then, without becoming bitter except by returning to God's faithful presence.-andrea
8:16 pm
Friday, February 17, 2006the harvest is plentiful, but the workers are few.
alright. pe today was really crap. school's been monotonous but fun. i got stepped on deliberately by andrea, landed in the drain because she kicked my leg and i tripped in school. whoa. fun-o-rama's tmr. wasnt really interested in going when james asked me last night. but oh well during maths lecture today isaac and the rest mentioned it. pestered me to go so ya i'm going. wam camp's up and coming. just heard from deb today that melvin suffered a lung collapse the other day. whoa. hope he's ok. this is why when your chest hurts for no good reason it's better to see a doctor. oh well. talked to james till 12 plus this morn and decided that we should really sleep. if only we bothered to call one another, to catch up with one another, then maybe we wont have lost so many of them.
keep this in mind-my God is so big, so strong and so mighty there's nothing my God cannot do, for you!
8:02 pm
Tuesday, February 14, 2006indescribable-chris tomlin
from the highest of heights to the depths of the sea creation's revealing Your majesty from the colours of fall to the fragrance of spring every creature unique and the song it sings all exclaiming..
indescribable, uncontainable You placed the stars in the sky and You know them by name You are amazing, God all powerful, untamable awestruck, we fall to our knees as we humbly proclaim You are amazing, God
who has told every lightning bolt where it should go? or seen heavenly storehouses laden with snow? who imagined the Sun and gives source to its light? yet conceals it to bring us the coolness of night none can fathom..
indescribable. amazing how God is moving. just read alvin's blog and i guess lois has shared with him the stuff we've been talking abt the past weeks. it's so often that we just pass one another by thinking that all's well with that person. thinking that someone else will do the talking. but i guess God deals with each one of us in His own way. so often i've stepped out of my comfort zone but stepped back in when i see no one's following. so often people say we'll do it together but yet we fail. so often i've had the mentality that some other people will do the job for me. so often i've been discouraged by the fact that people are not moving at all. it takes time. but God is waiting for that one of us to make the difference. but so often we're bounded by human relations that we fail to do so. as the teachers always say many years ago, God is watching. without a doubt i guess. so often we neglect one another during the week. so often we allow others to fall behind as we move on. so often we care only about what happens within our comfort zone that we forget to pull and hold on to the rest.
realisation set in when i began to experience for myself what it felt. God dealt with me and opened my eyes to see what's really going on in and around church. the people whom we claim to have grown up together with. are we really growing with them? where were we when they had empty slots in their lives? we were mostly there perhaps to share the joy but not the sorrow. how easy can that be?
we keep praying for a revival as a ministry. but revival is not going to come unless we come together as one. God is not going to send a revival when he knows that His people are not in line with Him. His people are not coming together as one body. His people are coming together as individuals in a group. people come and go. they find that they cant grow here and they leave without helping it to grow. so often we let our will be done rather than His. many people cannot see the point behind everything. it's hard to get people to hear, let alone listen.
where's that good samaritan in all of us?
2:59 pm
Saturday, February 11, 2006Your grace is enough for me.
woo hoo! 11 points!! can you believe it?! i cant, so does my mum. whoa. all thanks to God man. i was aiming for 12 which means like an average of 2 per subject and i got 11! i lost the star on my phone and i got more than what i had hoped for. my mum thinks that there's an error. couldnt believe what she saw on the results slip. haha. daddy's giving me a treat and a reward. i shall see. haha.
You give and take away You give and take away my heart will choose to say Lord blessed be Your name..
more than i could hope or dream of You have poured Your favour on me one day in the house of God is better than a thousand days in the world so blessed i cant contain it so much i've gotta give it away Your love has taught me to live now You are more than enough for me
11:17 am
Thursday, February 09, 2006sometimes i wonder why You even love me sometimes i wonder why you would call me "mine" but then i remember Your sacrifice how You gave Your life in exchange for mine.
school will not be the same without andrea and wei xin. honestly i will miss them a lot when we move on and begin yet another chapter of our lives. sigh. oh well. 3 more weeks to go in mi. andrea's the one who's always waiting for her friends after school even when she is dismissed much earlier. so i talk to her much more cos i'll go talk to her. and then i talk to her during breaks too. she's the one whom i got to know randomly. wei xin's the one with the cool personality who talks rubbish. actually we all do. we try to sit together during chinese lessons and andrea always gets caught for not sitting with her class so ya she was quite sad yesterday. haha. the violinist.
went out with kaidi and the rest yesterday. waited in school till 230 when lessons ended at 130. isaac was asking me in class what we're going to do with the hour. and i said play badminton when obviously i wasnt prepared. oh well. so ya took bus down town to meet charlene. she got a shock when she saw the five of us. cos she was expecting 15 pple to turn up. and that crap kaidi said ya 15 what. five of us plus you got 1-5 ma. so 15 la. rubbish la. went home with isaac cos we live nearby. talked a lot on the bus until he had to alight. for once 162 didnt seem to take that long. haha. oh while waiting in school i talked to andrea. haha see, what did i say abt her waiting for her friends all the time? was leaving school today and there she was again. asked me if i was free to lunch with her. apparently she was waiting for her friends with another friend and she's not sure if they're still in school. like what..
it's really amazing at how God works.
i am ready for you take my heart and make me new now i am ready for you to come and fill my soul am i?
6:06 pm
Monday, February 06, 2006entertaining jemmy now. his dinner is not ready and i'm talking to him online. with his cold jokes and all, it seem like he's entertaining me instead. silly boy. talking to himself. sch was quite fun. half the cohort has left. rather empty now. paid 20 bucks for the dumb carnival that i dont think i'll be attending. oh well. s19 had early dismissal today cos their maths lecturer wasnt ard. for me, it was 1545. crap. econs wasnt that bad after all. considering that there were only 5 of us. haha. when i reached tp wei xin msged me and i found out that she had early dismissal too! oh well.
this has been in my mind all day. my God is so big, so strong and so mighty there's nothing my God cannot do, for you!
7:41 pm
Friday, February 03, 2006i wake up to find, Your glory defined, and i will just bow at Your feet.
school's been monotonous. today was quite alright la. econs, pe then maths. pe was quite fun. not much happening these days. everyone's starting to withdraw. the cohort is shrinking. results are prob gonna be out next week. oh well.
i bow my knee before Your throne i know my life is not my own, i offer up a song of praise to bring You pleasure Lord
i seek the giver not the gift my heart's desire is to lift you high above all earthly kings to bring You pleasure Lord
one colour. one passion. one life. one way. jesus.