the quarantine's good in a way, apart from the boredom that may result. it gives me time to prepare and plan stuff and hopefully do some reading. the irregular hours of sleep have set in. even without the quarantine, i doubt i'll find myself anywhere else.
the mission trip was tiring but rewarding. we had quite a hectic schedule that kept us busy from morning till evening. then more planning and preparation after dinner. the last night was serious fun haha. we literally sang the night away. what started off as a song used by the older kids for their presentation became a something that we grew to love and the song could not leave our minds. it's still playing in mine till now. after practising our drama and tanda cinta act, the casual singing got more serious. we started recording and singing in parts plus a capella to enhance the song. it's probably the most relaxing night we had 'cos we didnt need to plan anymore haha.
one of my favourite boys looked so sad on the day we were leaving that i asked jeffrey to help me find out the reason. turned out that he was upset that we're leaving. oh man my tears just rolled when i heard that. and i was in the midst of taking photos. it's amazing what 4 days of interaction can do and how little it takes for the gospel to be shared. i can only pray that he'll remember what he's learnt from us and the bridge to life. tried to cheer him up by teaching him how to make a double star with a rubber band. i'll never forget that 'terima kasih lause'.
to do justly to love mercy to walk humbly with You God
Gembala Baik Gembala baik bersuling nan merdu membimbing aku pada air tenang dan membaringkan aku berteduh di padang rumput hijau berkenan
oh gembalaku itu Tuhanku membuat aku tentram hening mengalir dalam sungai kasihku kuasa damai cerlang bening
1:58 pm
Tuesday, June 16, 2009
whimsical fancies.
you asked me if i love you and i choke on my reply i'd rather hurt you honestly than mislead you with a lie and who am i to judge you on what you say or do i'm only just beginning to see the real you
romance and all its strategy leaves me battling with my pride but through the insecurity some tenderness survives i'm just another writer still trapped within my truth a hesitant prize fighter still trapped within my youth
at times i'd like to break you and drive you to your knees at times i'd like to break through and hold you endlessly
at times i understand you and i know how hard you've tried i've watched while love commands you and i've watched love pass you by
at times i think we're drifters still searching for a friend a brother or a sister but then the passion flares again
and sometimes when we touch the honesty's too much and i have to close my eyes and hide i wanna hold you till i die till we both break down and cry i wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides
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the major event of the year has come and gone. all the months of publicity, seeing everyone hard at work. i dont know how everyone's gonna fit into the chalet at thanksgiving but i'm sure God has a way. PLAYMAX was the bomb. (:
terima kasih Tuhan.
4:27 pm
Wednesday, June 10, 2009
that constant consciousness.
i just read a friend's pss letter the other day and it brought back that familiar warm feeling. every word marks the experiences gone through and sometimes it can be a real struggle. but the motivation behind every work never fails to remind me of my identity and to make it count for eternity. full time ministry calls for full time effort. the same goes as well even without full time ministry. how many songs actually have eternity in it? how do you know how many tomorrows you have? are we in a culture where we need security? because i may not have all the time in the world, therefore i do this and that? it's a 'right now' syndrome that we're catching on where everything has to be done for the moment. all this because we fail to see what eternity holds. every moment's a testimony, so live it well.
because He lives, i can face tomorrow because He lives, all fear is gone because i know, i know He holds the future and life is worth the living just because He lives
"he is no fool who gives what he cannot keep to gain what he cannot lose" -Jim Elliot