Friday, February 25, 2005lala. chem pract was real fun today. haha havent finish yet. was supp to finish it after sch today but had training. bleh. results are gonna be out on mon. theory's on 12th march. i'm like so dead arh. chinese test was the killer today. oh well. life. haha mummy came to fetch me from sch today cos i had too much things to carry. it would be a struggle to take the bus home. nah. poot. i lost my el tys. i feel sad. nvr lost a bk before. haha. where are you? it was in my locker and the next day it's gone. weird eh? maybe someone kapok-ed it. oh well. what shall i do without it? i'll see.
everytime when i, fail to obey Your Word everytime when i am lost in my own fantasy world everytime, when i forget You're there everytime, everytime
You are always there for me You will always care
Oh my Lord, I love You even if the world may fall, i will be still and hold on Glorious Redeemer i will love You as long i live for i will never cease to praise everytime
10:36 pm
Wednesday, February 16, 2005just checked my mail after like erm how many days yeah found out that so many people re going for isow. like whoa. haha justin's going too. now that's funny. ok oh well sch ended early today cos of sports heats. missed the last two periods and i'm gonna miss many more periods cos i will be off for attachment at air force sch for the next two days! haha. was supposed to go for some simulator thingy in march but then it clashes with isow so oh well what to do. dont even know if i can make it for isow. i am sianded with all the work. gtg to church on sat for the pk training and then down to kidzone and then down to grace's house. tired out. shalala. i need some help. haha. had a tune in my head some days ago and fitted some words in but somehow the rest of the song doesnt go so i'm stuck with only the verse. cool? haha maybe not. nicholas is a really blur guy haha ok out of point. floosh.
5:22 pm
Tuesday, February 01, 2005why is it always easier to forgive than to forget? am i really too nice? is it really that easy to deceive me? am i not forgiving or am i not forgetting? all your lies and deceptions. all of us hoped that you would change into a better person. yeah we hoped. cos we already did all we could do. we could only stand by and watch you become this creature that no one recognises anymore. all the saying that you want to change and all. everything that you do or say now is so hypocritical. you msged me out of the blue asking me why i'm treating you so coldly. i can no longer trust you. things can never go back to where they were. you are the one who has changed. not me. you're really such a jerk you know. you told me you hate liars. what now? you hate yourself? i dont think so.
why is it easier to forgive certain people? why is it that i sometimes go against what's right with them? why is it that i never speak out what i really feel? why am i always the one suiting other people? why is it that i always try to make people's day not spoiling the fun and all but deep inside i know that things are wrong and i feel terrible but i still go along with them? why do i care so much abt others and allow myself to get hurt? why?..