i felt pretty awake today despite the late nights and early mornings. haha. watched half of 'night at the museum' today 'cos it was shown in the library during common lunch break. and i keep bumping into joshua everywhere i go. haha. i think i hurt my shoulder, though i dont know when. i hope it's just an illusion. haha but nah. now's a bad time to injure any part of the body. ch dislocated his elbow during lunch so he skipped econs to go to the hospital. that's what happens when the guys get too rough and play too much. haha. quite funny. apparently they were judo-ing in the mpr and ch was breaking his fall but it ended up the wrong way. poor thing. must be yuda's doing. haha. kenneth split his pants last week and went for econs in his shorts. quite hilarious. aye. all the stupid things you do in school.
ade, thanks for the job given in the mail. haha. i sure will. (:
sometimes i wonder how much i'm missing out.
i'm running after You. so give me strength.
5:10 pm
Sunday, April 20, 2008
desensitised.
had dinner at merchant court on my birthday and i was so zombified. haha. but the good food did wake me up a little. looked at the koi pond next to me and wondered if they would like some durian puree. haha. dinner would have cost so much more if i did something stupid.
surprisingly, i didnt feel bored during college day. it felt warmer than anything else. both literally and figuratively. haha and dory complains that the money she gets is not enough. greedy woman. haha. bumped into the rest of the family while on my way to the hotel. the folks were pretty excited. telling their children all about the room and all. aye. okay but the room was really whoa. period. so we went separate ways after dinner. the ladies went shopping while the guys went to swim. mummy created her personal best of buying 3 pairs of shoes within a week. call that casual shopping. she almost bought the 4th pair until the guy told her it was the last piece. haha. then she tells me today that she almost bought another pair this morning. this time due to some reason i cant remember. haha. gg. walked the whole of millenia walk and almost the whole of marina square. i got it familiarised in a night. hahaha.
so i look to You.
6:19 pm
Monday, April 14, 2008
sometimes you cant help but wonder.
i think it's time to visit the playground and play with the swing. not that i'm troubled, but like the title suggests, sometimes you cant help but wonder. i need the swing therapy. haha.
the camp that seemed so far away has come and gone. whether it has turned out well is one thing, but i guess i'm thankful for it. i'm thankful for the answered prayers. the weather was great when we needed it to be that way and there were no injuries or whatsoever. i'm thankful for the people who can make me smile just by being there. no words needed, but their presence are greatly appreciated.
sometimes i just find myself at a loss for words, but with so much to say.
i miss the tau huay breaks. the self-extended lunch breaks when we would rush out of sch and rush back again for lessons. the people who never fail to understand, and sympathise. the randomness of it all. the self praise and how we can be so shameless at times. the trust we have in one another. the nonsense that we can generate and recycle. the times when we were selfless and pushed one another on. the circuits that we dread so much, but we still end up having so much fun. the laughter that was always present. the smiles that gave the encouragement. the genuity of it all. my team of nine.
nostalgia. i guess this is what they call it.
Lord grant me the serenity to accept the things i cannot change, the courage to change the things i can, and the wisdom to know the difference.
so i look to You.
6:36 pm
Monday, April 07, 2008
phish.
ahha. i've got krispy kremes in my possession. adds to my daily dose of sugar intake. plus calories. anyways, i thought yesterday's little drama by uncle trevor was pretty drama. haha. a bit hilarious but yeah good effort. the 830 congregation was like dazed. haha. i dont know if it's got something to do with age, but contemporary worship no longer gives me the feel good factor or whatever. it's either i'm stagnant or i've moved on. sure, it feels good to play in sync with the band but then again, what are we doing it for? are we pursuing perfection for ourselves? if we are focusing so much on getting things right, are we missing out on something greater?maybe i've felt like that before. but i've learnt that surrender is the essential. where is the congregation directed to when we do fanciful stuff. where should our attention be? i'm starting to love hymns because of their simplicity. not in terms of playing but in the lyrics and meaning and how each hymn is truly special. i've never discovered the richness in meaning of the lyrics, till now. so are we at the heart of worship?