Wednesday, December 29, 2004nth much to talk abt these days. training tmr. blah. went to j8 today and i was stopped by this guy who tried to sell one of those typical $5 tickets. he talked and talked and showed me that one of the beneficiaries is ycc and kept talking while i tried to dissuade him or smth. he talked and talked and refused to let me go arh. i was like yeah i know ycc it's affiliated to my church and he was like ehh come on la i know you dont want to buy the ticket that's why you say that right? i'm the one selling the tickets i know more than you..i was so fed up la wanted to bang him or some sort and he kept talking and talking i wanted to tell him since you know i dont want to buy the ticket why are you still talking so much i told him the truth but he simply dint believe me la like what the heck. dint want to embarass him by banging him and he still pulled a black face and walked away when i havent finished talking arh. so rude. no wonder he had the whole booklet in his hands. the beneficiaries are sure to suffer when they've got a salesperson like him. tsk.
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Thursday, December 23, 2004oh well. told him everything last night. kinda expected response i guess. not actually hoping for anything though. oh well. anw received some more cards today from melvin and ml. merry christmas. oh well.
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Monday, December 20, 2004alright woke up at like 1030 today thinking that it was still early like whoops. lalala lots of stuff happened trying to process them out. oh yeah was out practically the whole of sat. went for retreat in the morn had pizza for lunch and lots of ice played silly team building games especially the one when james had four balls in hand haha. anw john was supp to go bowling too but somehow he had dinner with his family and grace followed him to his place and i went to james' place. slacked ard at his place while he packed his stuff. we were planning to like take a cab to the bowling place until his dad told us that he can give us a lift so james took his own sweet time to pack his stuff. he emptied his stussy bag and opened his wardrobe to select the shirt he would wear to sleep which apparently he took quite long to decide cos his aircon was down he decided to wear his singlet to sleep but was afraid alvin's place wld be cold so he brought along his superman nike sweater. at first he wanted to bring along his fila jacket but when he stuffed it into the bag it took up quite a lot of space so he took his sweater and i held his jacket and i was like so which one do you want hurry up make up your mind. took like ten seconds to decide. oh well we sat down to look at some photos which were taken like taken in 95 96 and we just sat there laughing at ourselves oh yeah and john and his sisters. hum. reached the bowling place very early met lois' senior who's a great bowler and talks crappy crap. played cosmic bowling it's real cool i liked the lights haha then they had this lucky draw thingy and the presents were really under budget arh we kept laughing cos one guy won a posh car keychain but it's real small then we were imitating bean and james said because if it's really small it wld be microscopic so funny la with all the bean crap and he was imitating mickey and goofy while waiting for the game to start and lois' senior won a ninja turtle figurine looked like some toy that some kid dint want anymore haha. left the place ard 9 plus then went back to james' house to get our stuff and he continued packing haha slow got all his bath stuff and he was complaining that he felt like going for a camp cos his bag had a lot of stuff. haha adidified. took the train all the way to clementi and he tried sending a corny msg to a stranger via bluetooth but that person rejected it haha talked abt samantha and all his probs with her both of us felt like sleeping but the train was packed oh well when we were alighting we found two seats arh like thanks a lot man. anw found our way to alvin's place reached there like 11 plus bathed then watched some bits of harry potter and the first twenty mins of saving private ryan it was crap man. john took out all the wires and connected them to the tv and we played halo. me james and john played first and again i was crashed la sad case. grace was like watch your back and as i looked for a place to hide i got killed. the others played too and alvin got the hang of it after like two games and he was as good as john went ard throwing grenades at everybody then we got fed up with his grenade throwing we switched the mode to limited grenade haha watched them play halo til like 5 and i decided to sleep cos i cldnt take it anymore and we had to wake up at 7. so with two miserable hours of sleep we all went to church. was really stoned dint even know what i was teaching arh just talked whatever i cld think of and left the rest to a.lin kum. sheesh. went straight to bed when i reached home and slept til dinner. watched tv with mummy and we snacked alot haha i told her shrek was a good show and she was thinking of watching it but i commented that we have both vcds so we watched the chinese show instead. turned out to be some dumb show. oh yeah six weeks is a really good show but next week is the final episode already i like the show the beginning was still ok but now it's really nice. haha.
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Friday, December 17, 2004shagged. just came home not too long ago. went for the coc parade. ha was supposed to be in the supporting contingent but somehow the rehearsal was yesterday and well had to go john's place so oh well. anw it's not really fun wahaha stand in the hot sun and listen to two speeches. yesterday was totally crappified. did most of my christmas shopping but still cant find presents for some people. oh well. took bus to john's place and on the bus we were talking so much na-ansense la haha. ha. ha .hem. anw tmr's another long day with the retreat and all. it's gonna rain soon. oh yeah went to the park to sit at the swings on wed supposed to go there to pick up stones for phy project but just felt like playing and i went so high it took me quite a while to stop the swing la. i am tired. nono i'm winnie. yeah i feel tired. i just need rest.
*and i'll wish on a star that somewhere you are thinking of me too..
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Tuesday, December 14, 2004oh well lotsa things to do with so little time. going shopping this thurs. need to get presents for everyone. christ-mas. havent touched my chi tys yet. supp to complete the bk by the time sch reopens. oh well. nth much to talk abt. oh well.
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Tuesday, December 07, 2004i cant believe the way Your love has got a hold on me each morning i wake to find You near You lift me above my fears and set my feet on solid ground all of my days belong to You
and i breathe in Your breath of life that fills my heart You are my all consuming fire
and i stand here before You in wide open wonder amazed at the glory of You the power of heaven revealing Your purpose in me as i'm reaching for You
oh well. woke up at 10 today. was reading 'the prayer of jabez for teens' on sunday on my way to church and in the book i found an interesting question. God loves you infinitely and wants you in His presence every moment, and if He knows that heaven is a much better place for you, why has He left you here on earth? sounds logical to me. anw i shared this on sunday with my group members and it's quite interesting to hear them share about how they are keeping their committments and stuff. still thinking whether to go for the bb party thing. told chun kwang that i'll let him know on sunday. anyone going pls tell me thanx. sian training on fri again. tentatively gonna watch bride and prejudice on thurs haha. think it shld be good.
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Thursday, December 02, 2004waha i'm back. passed my ssc. i'm a staff. yeah. eh sergeant loke if you're reading this i'm now a staff sergeant haha. okok i'm flushed now and sort of tanned cos stood under the sun for three days. bleh. anw when i came home last night mummy was like..you stood under the sun the whole day arh?. dint realise that i was so flushed until i looked into the mirror. heh. my face was like a babboon's bottom. it's better now cos it's turning dark. haha i'm cool. anw john and grace left for europe last night and james josh ade and bre left for one camp today. i'm still stuck here with training tmr. bleh. realised that i havent talked abt youth camp which happened a week ago. i think the camp com is getting more and more creative every year be it in games or programme. it's starting to rain now ok out of point. anw what really touched my heart was to see everyone just focusing on Him and that's really whoa.. learnt a lot thru the games we played and i also learnt alot from people from gilead. they taught me lots of stuff. i remember when we were just sharing during one qt session and nic shared that when we were playing the amazing race for God nothing else was on his mind except green beans. he dint listen to the debrief after each game and he was just focused on getting more green beans. that made me think. of course i also wnted to get more green beans for me group but at the end of the day it made me think on what really mattered in this life of mine. when we were doing qt on john 15 we were all sharing and stuff and when it came to nic's turn he shared and he kind of teared when he said 'God really loves me alot' and i felt like crying too cos His love is really real to me and nic was sharing on His realationship with God and it's like he quite a perfectionist of some sort and when he was preparing for his 'o's he prayed to God everyday but all that he talked abt was his results and stuff and yeah edmund started to teach when the sharing was over. the theme song sort of spoke to me everytime i sing it cos it reminds me of what exactly am i pursuing and what exactly do i need. the whole camp was refreshing. yeah. great. got to know more people.