Monday, December 29, 2003
dk whether im thinking too much or she's reli drifting away..realised tt i dk her as well as before haiz idk i guess the camp reli changed a lot of stuff..quite sad tt i dint go but it's a fact tt i cant change a lot of things arent in my control you know..reli very tired of all the guessing and stuff i mean when can i be reli sure..that time wont come until she tells me or i ask but how shld i go about asking i guess i have the fear that even if i ask she wont tell me..even now when she comes online i dont dare to talk to her cos im afraid that she wld be irritated with me bre says she wont cos im her gf but who knows?the year is coming to an end real soon..can there be a happy ending?alvin says i always look troubled i guess im reli troubled..sometimes i feel very left out can things be just like they were before?i really want to know..
"Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge him and he will make your paths straight."
