Sunday, January 30, 2005sick. cough sore throat headache. all that on fri when i had my chem test, geog test, chi test and ting xie. was so stoned for the day arh. slept the afternoon away. just feel all mixed up. everything's in a jumbled mess. why why why. why not why not why not. perhaps i need another swing at the park. i need a break. i dont want a kit kat. was talking to lois today abt probs and feelings for stuff. we shared same sentiments on most of the stuff we talked abt. sharing experiences and stuff. one thing she said made me think. everyone in fairfield is nice but when we put them together they dont turn out as nice as they shld be. i guess that's rather true. was really disappointed with myself today. edmund passed me the guidelines for leaders this morn. stuff abt interacting with newcomers and all. i told myself to try to break free from cliques and try to talk to newcomers. i did try. it's really difficult. i talked to yong jie with joshua and he kinda dao-ed me. oh well. but the thing was i dint try again. i guess i kind of relied on others to like talk to him. i placed hopes in people from the group that they will like somehow also lead by example interact with the new people and all but oh well. i told myself that i shldnt be in the same group as the rest but in the end..sigh.
love that's stronger love that covers sin and takes the way of the world i love you all of my hope is in you jesus christ take my life take all of me..
