sigh. the things we could have done but we didnt. time time time. and cliques.
and here's the million dollar question. can unity be realised only with a diversity?
fads. people go after fads. i remember the quiz thing the girls took this morning. the very first question. does being in a relationship affect the relationship you have with your friends? something in that context. when i look back at how things were, there's a tinge of sadness. okay maybe something more than that.
sigh. the things we could have done but we didnt. time time time. and cliques.
honestly, i'm afraid. the awkwardness when you meet someone not knowing what to say. although you know you've got loads to tell the person but after a long period of not talking, somehow you end up not knowing what to say. it's an unexplainable kind of awkwardness. rahh. think the trip to ac made me think a lot. the people i met and all the memories. just sitting at the grandstand and looking out onto the field, all the flashbacks came running.
i dont know how we met. but i know our parents do. i cant remember the first words i spoke to you. i didnt remember all the conversations we had. at that time, i didnt feel that you were that important. i never realised that my words could mean something to you. until one fine christmas, you wrote me a card. in it was something i said to you which i thought you wouldnt take it to heart. it was a form of encouragement then, for the situation you were in. but when i read the words over and over, i realised the impact my words had on you, and the kind of friend you were in my heart. i realised how much you wished for us to be different, but we disappointed you. there were great memories, no doubt. months went by, then came years. we drifted and drifted, till we got further. cliques were formed, people were excluded. inside jokes and laughter, while some stood in the corner. the hurt that grew while standing outside the circle. you backslided, but no one lent you a hand. the hopes you had, now dashed and given up. when we finally realised what we should have done, is it all too late?
sigh. the things we could have done but we didnt. time time time. and cliques.
at least we're still talking i guess. we all miss you loads. seriously.
looking out onto the field where colleen was playing frisbee, i wanted to play too. but my back ached a lot. rahh. had the impulse to run to get rid of the rush of emotions but figured i would look really retarded. sitting where i was, i was deep in thoughts. until some choir people started practising their carols behind me. haha i was shocked. suddenly serenaded by voices. but ac choir's fantastic. oh and dance too. well done, candice! amazing.
chp practice was well, not bad. john, you should sponsor us ear plugs, seriously. buy me lunch if your sticks break. haha.
