the past week's been pretty busy. attended bible trail for the past three days and i would say that it's really good stuff. got me thinking about the faith and the people around. not that the conference changed my perspective or anything, but i'm just baffled at how people can be so filled with the Spirit one moment and the great reversal takes place. maybe i've been like that before. but as i grow older, maturity and sensitivity start to stand out. since hearing God's voice was the central theme for the conference, i realised sensitivity to the Spirit became all the more important and how many times i've learnt to hear but failed to listen.
as i sat in the first row today, it was like some roller coaster ride of a kind. there were major distractions which usually i'll try to ignore but today was really rahh-ish. i thought u.king hee's message was really good. coincidentally, it was one of the quiet materials for camp. it's been a week since camp and i wondered at how the flame could be extinguished so quickly. it's really hard to see the Godliness in us. how then can we talk about being contagious? when the emotions we feel are so temporary, when camp is one of the few times we connect to the source?
during our group discussion yesterday, sharon asked a thought-provoking question. if Christ were to appear right in front of you now, what would your reaction be? i said 'wow'. but after today, i realised that's not all. i would be so totally ashamed and guilty. Isaiah 6 spoke a lot to me. at how he saw his own sin before anything else. and as i look at mine, just looking at sunday morning alone, words are not enough to condemn. the reverence and awe that's due unto Him is found only when we feel like it. so as i looked back today, at all that was happening, i couldnt understand. and there was nothing i could do when words from me proved to be insufficient. i could only pray. and pray i did.
